Srila B.V. Naryana Maharaj (left) and Srila B.V. Trivikrama Maharaja |
[This
year, 2016, the appearance day of Srila Trivikrama Maharaja is February
5, in India. Please accept this lecture that Srila Gurudeva gave in
Varsana, the year of his disappearance in 2002: Listen]
I
offer my humble obeisances unto the lotus feet of my Gurudeva,
Nitya-lila-pravista Om Visnupada Sri Srimad Bhaktiprajnana Kesava
Gosvami Maharaja, to all the Vaisnavas, and to Sri Gauranga. By the
causeless mercy of Sri Guru and Gauranga, the first fifteen days of our
niyama-seva Kartika-vrata have passed without a problem; it passed
sweetly and happily. Today, however, we received very sad news. In Sri
Caitanya-aritamrta Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu asked Srila Raya Ramananda:
duhkha-madhye kona duhkha haya gurutara? krsna-bhakta-viraha vina
duhkha nahi dekhi para [Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu asked, "Of all kinds of
distress, what is the most painful?" Sri Ramananda Raya replied, "Apart
from separation from the devotee of Krsna, I know of no unbearable
unhappiness." (Madhya-lila, 8.248)] Sri Mahaprabhu asked Sri Raya
Ramananda, "What is the worst type of suffering?" Sri Ramananda Raya
replied, "Vaisnava-viraha." Para means the highest or greatest. The
greatest or most grievous suffering is Vaisnava-viraha, separation from
pure Vaisnavas. After the disappearance of Srila Bhaktisiddhanta
Sarasvati Thakura Prabhupada, my Gurudeva, Srila Bhakti Prajnana Kesava
Gosvami Maharaja, along with a few others, established the Gaudiya
Vedanta Samiti; and Srila Bhaktivedanta Swami Maharaja was one of the
founding members. Gurudeva had already taken sannyasa and had been
preaching for a long time, but now he established the new Gaudiya
Vedanta Samiti's headquarters in Navadvipa and began preaching through
the Samiti.
As
Krsna is bhakta-vatsalya, very affectionate to His devotees, Sri Guru
is sisya-vatsalya, very affectionate to his disciples. After some time,
some of Guru Maharaja's god-brothers saw his sisya-vatsalya, which was
more affectionate than the most loving father could be to his son. These
god-brothers could not reconcile this, because previously they had been
the objects of all his affection. Hurt, most of them left Guru
Maharaja, and only a few stayed with him. Guru Maharaja had three
pillars of devotion – three prominent sevakas. Parama-pujyapada Sri
Srimad Bhaktivedanta Vamana Maharaja, Parama-pujyapada Sri Srimad
Trivikrama Maharaja and I began to serve him totally, with our lives and
souls, taking our lives in our hands [an Indian expression meaning
"ready to risk our lives"]. From the very beginning, Pujyapada Vamana
Maharaja, Pujyapada Trivikrama Maharaja and I were made the three
pillars of the Gaudiya Vedanta Samiti by my Guru Maharaja. At that time
Srila Pariyataka Maharaja was not with us; he joined after some time.
Srila Vamana Maharaja, especially, served Srila Guru Maharaja in so many ways. He was the publisher of our Gaudiya Patrika monthly magazine and many other literatures. He was also the "scribe" of Guru Maharaja's dictations for his correspondence, articles, and books. Even before I joined, when I was a police officer and had never personally met Guru Maharaja, he would write to me with great love and affection. He would dictate his letters, addressing me as Tiwariji because I came from a high-class brahmana family with the surname Tiwari, and Srila Vamana Maharaja would write down his words. Then, after I joined and until I was initiated, Pujyapada Vamana Maharaja would also call me "Tiwariji". Srila Vamana Maharaja was like the mother of the Gaudiya Vedanta Samiti. He took care of everyone in the Matha and supplied whatever anyone needed, like prasadam, clothing, and so on.
Srila Vamana Maharaja, especially, served Srila Guru Maharaja in so many ways. He was the publisher of our Gaudiya Patrika monthly magazine and many other literatures. He was also the "scribe" of Guru Maharaja's dictations for his correspondence, articles, and books. Even before I joined, when I was a police officer and had never personally met Guru Maharaja, he would write to me with great love and affection. He would dictate his letters, addressing me as Tiwariji because I came from a high-class brahmana family with the surname Tiwari, and Srila Vamana Maharaja would write down his words. Then, after I joined and until I was initiated, Pujyapada Vamana Maharaja would also call me "Tiwariji". Srila Vamana Maharaja was like the mother of the Gaudiya Vedanta Samiti. He took care of everyone in the Matha and supplied whatever anyone needed, like prasadam, clothing, and so on.
As
for Srila Trivikrama Maharaja, he was very, very qualified. Our Guru
Maharaja was in charge of publications, and he put Srila Trivikrama
Maharaja in charge of organizing all the preaching, and his services
included sending other preachers to various districts of Bengal. Srila
Trivikrama Maharaja would personally go collecting and preaching,
especially in the district of Bardavan, and Guru Maharaja did a great
deal of preaching in Midnapura, Chaubis Parganas, and other places.
When
I first joined, Parama-pujyapada Srila Trivikrama Maharaja showed me
even more familial affection than did Srila Vamana Maharaja. Our Guru
Maharaja placed me in his hands, and we became very close. It was Srila
Trivikrama Maharaja who taught me how to perform kirtana, how to preach,
and how to collect donations. Sometimes, in a very loving way, he would
also rebuke me. In all the years that I spent with Guru Maharaja I was
never rebuked by him, but with so much love and affection Srila
Trivikrama Maharaja used to do so. We had such a close connection that
sometimes our discussions would become very heated; I would counter his
arguments and he would counter mine, and our Guru Maharaja would kindly
support me by taking my side. Srila Trivikrama Maharaja used to preach
all over India, and when he would go to preach with our Guru Maharaja. I
would go with them as Guru Maharaja's sevaka. I would massage him, cook
for him, wash his cloths, carry a lantern for him because there was no
electricity at that time, and I performed many other services. Sometimes
I made mistakes, and at those times Srila Trivikrama Maharaja would
protect me. For some time it was a regular procedure that in each
village, along with his lectures, Guru Maharaja would present a slide
show depicting Caitanya Mahaprabhu and other great personalities. I once
forgot to bring the slide projector and when I realized this, I was in
great anxiety that Gurudeva would be upset with me. Srila Trivikrama
asked me what was wrong and when I told him he said, "Don't worry. I
will handle the matter. I will take care of everything for you." Later
on, when our Guru Maharaja was ready to give his lecture and slide show
presentation, he asked Srila Trivikrama Maharaja, "So, is everything
ready?" Trivikrama Maharaja replied, "Oh, today is a very cloudy day and
it may rain. If you also show the slides, the program will take a long
time. The rain may come and everyone will leave before you have
completed your class." Guru Maharaja asked him, "Then what should I do?"
Trivikrama Maharaja replied, "Why not just give the class?" And Guru
Maharaja was satisfied to do that. Years later, Srila Trivikrama
Maharaja reminded me of this incident and asked me if I remembered it. I
said, "Yes!" and we happily and tightly embraced one another.
Guru
Maharaja entered nitya-lila in October of 1968, but internally he is
always looking after us and encouraging us. Externally, Srila Trivikrama
Maharaja took the place of my Gurudeva in the sense that he encouraged
me in all activities. When I began preaching in the West and writing and
translating books there, I would write to Parama-pujyapada Srila Vamana
Maharaja, Srila Trivikrama Maharaja, Srila Pariyataka Maharaja, and
others for advice – because they are very qualified preachers. Srila
Trivikrama Maharaja would reply my letters without delay. He would
encourage me and inspire me to write more books and to preach all over
the world. Pujyapada Vamana Maharaja is the present acarya of the
Gaudiya Vedanta Samiti and he was very busy with many grave
responsibilities. He was always very happy with my preaching, but
sometimes he was sick and therefore he could not always answer my
letters. Pujyapada Trivikrama Maharaja, on the other hand, usually
remained in one place, and he always replied without delay; I cannot
forget him. I consider both Bhaktivedanta Vamana Maharaja and
Bhaktivedanta Trivikrama Maharaja to be my siksa-gurus. They supported,
nourished and inspired me, so much so that I cannot express my feelings
in words; but Pujyapada Trivikrama Maharaja's familial love for me was
even greater than that of Pujyapada Vamana Maharaja. We used to sleep
together, quarrel together over philosophy, and we loved each other in
so many ways.
Sometimes
we presented different ideas and we countered each other's arguments,
but he greatly honored me. Although I was giving honor to him as a
siksa-guru, sometimes, in his last days, he used to offer me sastang
pranama. He even used to offer pranamas to my sandals when I was not
present before him. No one else could have done this; he was so polite
and humble. He was a senior Vaisnava in all respects and he could help
the entire world, but he used to write me, "We cannot do the services
you are doing for Gurudeva, so I especially favor you and praise you.
May you preach for a long time. May you write and publish many books."
We have
lost one of the pillars of the Gaudiya Vedanta Samiti today, but I feel
some relief knowing that he left during this Kartika month, during
niyama-seva-vrata, and that he was in Navadvipa Dhama. Also, he left at
the time of amrta-yoga, an auspicious time of the day according to the
movement of the sun and moon, and it was also tritiya-tithi, one of the
most auspicious days of the month. He inspired us to observe Annakuta
Mahotsava, Dipavali, and Vhatri-dvitiya [Yamaraja and Yamuna devi are
brother and sister. Yamuna devi was upset that so many conditioned souls
were being punished by her brother and sent to Hell. Desiring to help
those souls, she told him, "I want people to have an opportunity to
become free from your punishments." Yamaraja replied, "I am therefore
giving a boon that anyone who takes bath in your waters on the
auspicious day of Vhatri-dvitiya will be delivered from sinful
reactions.] Internally, in my heart, Srila Trivikrama Maharaja told me
that he would leave this world after we observe those festivals; it was a
wonderful thing. Otherwise, if he had left before, we would have been
absorbed in thoughts and activities in relation to him, and we would not
have been able to properly observe those important holy functions.
Now, being
the representative of you all, I am offering my heartfelt puspanjali at
his lotus feet. I think that he has been placed in Samadhi today. Where
is he now? He will be in Navadvipa Dhama or Vraja Dhama. He was always
especially inclined towards Mahaprabhu in Navadvipa Dhama, and therefore
I think that he is there. I pray for all of us that he will be very
merciful to me, and to all of you, and that he will inspire us and give
us blessings so that we can try to serve Gurudeva and do bhajana as he
did.
Parama-pujyapada Trivikrama Maharaja Ki Jaya!
The disappearance day of Pujyapada Srila Trivikrama Maharaja ki jaya!
The disappearance day of Pujyapada Srila Trivikrama Maharaja ki jaya!
Gaura premanande
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